For some time, something’s been puzzling me.
Whenever I watch a video of a dancer who is moving to the music with such embodied flow, completely immersed in the music, that it’s as if they are not moving – the music, the dance is moving them – it brings me to tears. I feel something inside of me say:
“I want that. I want that more than anything.”
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It’s not just with dance that this happens. It’s also with song and poetry, any time I see that kind of fully present expression.
It touches me and this desire within me stirs to be like that.
I’ve had a story that would never be me, and I’ve wondered about this.
What I’ve seen is that I really want to experience that kind of fluid movement, and that’s true in my physical dance journey. It’s something I’ve been chasing for almost two years now.
But I felt there was more to see because everything I desire ultimately is something I already have. What is it?
And then this morning I saw something.
This morning I was moving to music. I hadn’t intended to, it just happened. I noticed how I could feel the music. It was in me and it was moving me.
And in that moment I saw what it was I was looking for. It wasn’t just fluidity of movement, there was something deeper I was craving.
It was the experience of feeling. The pure feeling of letting life move through me. Unrestrained.
Because for most of my life I’ve been trying to hold back that flow, not realizing I was doing it most of the time, but cluttering it up with judgments and thoughts about what it means. Am I allowed and am I not? Instead of just allowing the flow of life through me and feeling it with every part of me.
There’s something glorious about really taking my foot off the hose of life, letting the waters of life move through me.
As this realization came, I knew that I already had it.
In that moment I was tasting it. It’s always available, not reserved for professional dancers, moving speakers or poets.
It belongs to all of us. It belongs to me. It’s already mine.
I get to feel. I get to dance, and so do you.
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