A few months ago, the idea for Steph DragonHeart dropped in and I bought the domain.
That weekend, I carved out ten hours for writing and reflection to discover what wanted to live on Steph DragonHeart. And I had no idea why.
When I told one of my friends about this, her first reaction was…
…worry. She was worried for me.
At the time I saw in her reaction a reflection of her fears about what might happen if she followed her own wild, true passions.
But now I have a case of the wobbles.
wobble (def.) – to move or proceed with an irregular rocking or staggering motion or unsteadily and clumsily from side to side.
The Wobbles – the bundle of insecure thinking around a new endeavor, symptomized by insistent doubts that said new endeavor may be too much, inappropriate or a bad idea
In other words, right about now I’m thinking:
WTF are you doing, Steph?
I have a great thing going with The Awakened Business. It’s a platform I believe in that has touched thousands of lives and helped hundreds of clients.
And here I am, bursting with the evolutionary fervor that is the relentless, untamable Steph DragonHeart.
It defies logic and strategy.
On the surface, it looks very un-Three Principles.
(The Three Principles is the spiritual understanding at the heart of my life, work and creations.)
In fact, it doesn’t look like anything I’ve ever seen before, though it sometimes bears a vague resemblance to some of my favorite fantasy series.
I’m reminded of the way I felt before leaving my marriage and my life in New York to become a pet sitting digital nomad.
I recall how it felt when I was called to immigrate to Portugal.
I could not know what I’d find on the other side of these choices. I felt excitement, fear, sadness and doubt. There were moments when I shook my fist at the sky and cursed the gods for the path they’d revealed to me.
Now I’m talking dragons and magic, abandoning my safe little identity as a business coach.
But who am I kidding?
This is exactly what I asked for.
I want to live out loud. Doing what I want to do, the way I want to do it. Pushing against the boundaries to see what I can get away with.
I want to follow my inner knowing, even when it doesn’t make sense. Especially when it doesn’t make sense.
Sure, I could ignore these nudges from life, but why would I?
I’ve tasted how good it feels to come alive to the adventure of life. Why would I settle for anything less?
My writing of late feels uncomfortably personal. I chafe against the idea of sharing my inner journey like this, and yet, it’s exactly what I’m called to do.
This feels like me. Wild. Messy. Devoted.
I want you to know that it’s okay to have doubts, to question yourself and even break out in a case of the Wobbles.
It doesn’t have to stop you from taking the next action. (It sure as hell isn’t stopping me.)
So if there happens to be something you feel nudged to do, that you’ve been avoiding, something you know in your soul is yours to do…
You don’t have to do it.
But if you want to and you can, you probably will.
And it will be glorious.
“When I do what I really want to do, something wonderful always happens.”
This quote is my new mantra.
“Something wonderful” isn’t about the result. because I have no idea what will happen.
“Something wonderful” is living from aliveness by following my desire and knowing. It’s experiencing myself as the emergent creation of life, when I’m in so far over my head that my intellect can’t take back the reigns, and life has her way with me.
Would you like to play in the DragonHeart portal with me?
Right now I have one spot left before my experiment ends.
Come dive into the waters of your heart’s desire, and discover the wonder that awaits.
Book your DragonHeart Portal Conversation here.
Yours in love and play,
Steph
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