I’m lying on the soft, white comforter in my London Airbnb, suitcase half-packed, sunlight streaming through the window, after five days at a Michael Neill event.
In the last week, I’ve been moved to tears, awed into silence, wrapped in bear hugs, and I laughed. A lot.
But I almost didn’t come.
Let me backup a sec and tell you the story.
As part of The Awakeners program, we got a ticket to attend this event live or via live stream. I really, really wanted to be there in person.
But I made a promise to myself that I wouldn’t make the trip unless I had the cash for it.
So I ran an experiment:
What if I just imagined myself in London? Not as a “manifesting technique,” but with curiosity. “Wouldn’t it be cool to go?”
I’d been noticing that most of the time when a cool idea comes along, we quickly jump to limitations. Where will the money come from? How will I get there? Should I go in the first place?
My experiment was to see what happens if I just stay in the nice feeling, without needing to do anything about it or figure out where the money would come from. Would it happen?
I put the dates on my calendar, browsed flights and Airbnbs, and imagined celebrating my sweetie’s birthday in London. I did a pretty good job of staying in feeling of possibility without jumping into logistics or fear.
Until Olly told me – repeatedly, because I was too excited to notice – that he didn’t want to go.
“Oh, well,” I thought. “I guess I’m not going.” My shoulders drooped.
And then I remembered the experiment. Just because he wasn’t going didn’t mean I couldn’t.
So I came back to the lovely feeling of being in London.
Fast forward to three weeks before the event, and still no cash. I was tempted to declare, “I guess it’s not happening,” but I stayed in the feeling. Whether I ended up going or not, if I’m enjoying myself, I win.
Then quite unexpectedly, two new clients paid in full. More than enough money. In fact, it was the best income month I’ve had in years.
Still, I didn’t book the flight.
Was I going or not?
Until I woke up one morning and just knew. I was going.
I booked a flight into London for the day after my sweetie’s birthday and found a sweet Airbnb.
Eight days before the event.
Then came the morning of my departure. I felt weak and nauseous, possibly vegan pizza the night before. I wasn’t sure I could manage the trek from Gatwick Airport to London after midnight.
“If I don’t feel well, I’m not doing,” I told Olly.
I let go of any need to go to London. I’d do whatever felt right.
As the hours passed, I still didn’t know if I was going. I started to feel better. Not great, but better.
I packed up my things as if I was leaving, knowing that at 4:30pm I’d either call an Uber and walk out the door. Or I wouldn’t.
When my alarm went off, I knew I was going and so I did.
Years ago, I would have “decided” early and stuck to it, even if it meant overriding my inner wisdom.
Now, I’ve realized that I don’t need to decide. I can just know, in the moment, and act from there.
What’s the point of this story?
Well, you get to make decisions (or not) however you want. But…
Most people try to force a decision before they actually know. But you’re missing out.
You don’t need to figure it out. You can’t force clarity.
Just stay in the nice feeling – which is the whole point anyway, right? – and at some point you’ll know. Then you can act.
Things unfold in the perfect timing.
That’s what we’re up to in the IMPACT membership this month – -getting out of our heads and into inspired action for creating clients.
We kick off with our Community Mastermind this Wednesday. You might like to join us:
https://www.theawakenedbusiness.com/impactinvite
Yours in love and play,
Steph
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